Trying To Get It Together

Up Until Now

I had a decent evening.  I was dogged tired and finally realized that I was tired, not just lacking focus.  I played basketball and almost went home skipping the typical gathering afterwards.

If anything else, the main thing I worked to change is developing my friendships.  Ignoring them would have been contradictory to what I want.  I ate as healthy as I could.  Then I went home, did some laundry and went to bed earlier than I have recently.

I still woke up tired and wonder if I am not sick.  Work is picking up.  Hopefully the Law of Attraction works.

Oh and I had the most amazing dream last night.  It was very realistic then movie-like.  Something in my dream that I could not imagine doing in real life.  It gave me something to ponder.

Still loving Twitter.

Focus and Twitter

I picked up Twitter on a lark after seeing them on other sites.  Didn’t know what I would do with it but I have ended up finding it to being an accountability buddy.

I have wanted to break some good habits or momentum but then I think of writing in Twitter.  I write about it and it keeps me on task reminding me of what I want to do.  That is really the problem with me.  I will have a moment of clarity and strength then I will use my powers of procrastination to say, “I will do this tomorrow,” for avoidance.

Twitter keeps my goals in my mind.  I actually dreamt of using Twitter, that is how much it had excited my mind.  Out of reflex I have bought a soda during lunch and starting drinking before I remembered that I was “focusing” on my goals.  Sounds silly but I would just forget.

Even after this experiment is over, win or lose I will keep Twitter.  I have a “Monkey Mind” as they call it in Buddhism and being able to throw thoughts on to Twitter will let me organize them later.

Almost 24 hours and I am still excited.  I’m doing 90% better than I usually do with my plans.

Set up to fail?

I probably have but that isn’t the right attitude is it?  I realize setting up the blog is the same situation of the bells and whistles that distract me in other times I have tried to change.

I have bought PDA’s, set up computers, copied plans, etc and it was usually to kill time before I got to the real work.  I should have just set this up on a wordpress blog which would have saved time setting it up with workcandy.  Still free but I thought it would be fun to do it on my friend’s site.  Only he knows my middle name so I don’t think anyone else would know me, much less stumble upon this sub site.

I set up Twitter, Joe’s goals and will probably do other things.  I tell myself in the back of my head that I have good reasons to do this while the side of my head says I am wasting time.  I guess if this experiment fails the side of my head can tell the back of my head to shut up once and for all.

I plan to read through the book My Own Worst Enemy while I do this.  I will try (I know what Yoda says) to do what it says, except for that part of massive change.